My mid-50s flash was the end of the movie "Life of Pi":

SPOILER -- SPOILER -- SPOILER

If you haven't already seen this movie, you're going to want to experience it for yourself.

"I've told you two stories about what happened out on the ocean. Neither explains what caused the sinking of the ship, and no one can prove which story is true and which is not.

In both stories the ship sinks, my family dies, and I suffer ...

So which story do you prefer?

The one with the tiger. That's the better story.

And so it goes with God."

Click. I just started sobbing uncontrollably, and suddenly there was no more need for (or fear of) gods or any of that mysterious nonsense. I was free. I still can't make it past that scene without tears.

I wish for everyone that you can somehow find your way out and live the rest of your life free of religion, dealing with things simply as they really are.